2 minute to 2am.
What am I doing this late?
I cant sleep.
I just kept thinking...
How and when did I get into this situation?

I really want to tell them that I already know the truth.
But I cant.
Cause I know if I tell them,
Not only I will get hurt,
they will get hurt too.

I dont want to see my friends to be upset.

♥Kayy

Yesterday,
Many things happened.
Many things were found out.
Many things made me dumbfounded.

Went West Coast for filming.
I somehow acted a small part.
And I am sunburned and became darker!


Production team without me!

But overall I had fun! XD
And tired!!

At night, actually suppose to go airport and send Stiffy off.
But I cant make it.
Cause I am really tired after the production.
Sorry Stiffy. :(


Like I say I am dumbfounded because of some stuff.

The perfect guy in my eyes isnt really that perfect.
And is exactly the type of guy I would hate.
I spend 4 years of my life just waiting for him.
Why does my heart hurt so much when I heard that he is not the one I actually thought he were?
Perhap he was right.
I just dont know him at all.
But I know my love for him was once true.

♥Kayy

I am excited about next week already.
Going back to Bowen Sec for Teacher's Day.

I hope that I would find back some memories for my script.
& really hope I would see someone. :)

And also 5A2 people! XD
Miss all my secondary school friends!

♥Kayy

Tomorrow is the last UT for sem 1.
I totally buang math today... seriously.

And tomorrow will be the last day E36P will be as a class.
Sad.
I miss Daniel, Jason and Ee Ling already. HAHAHAS!

This week is a BUSY BUSY week.
Tues- UT, FF meeting & E36p outing.
Wed- Filming, Ton with Lepak IG.
Thurs- Send Stiffy off, MORE FILMING!
Friday- Outing with Meow Meow! :D

Busy busy! XD

♥Kayy

Uts are driving me crazy.

This two days lepak with film family.
Discussed with my new production team for our new films.
WOOOO!
I am so looking forward to our films.
And now, for my film.
I need to find a cute male lead.
I have someone in mind, but I dont dare ask luh. WAHAHAS!
BKYL! BE MY MALE LEADDDDDDDD~ :P

♥Kayy

I wonder what got into me today...

Sheena told me he has move on,
and I saw him with a girl talking happily on bus today...

I should be glad that he had move on,
But why do I have the bitter feeling in me?

Sometimes, I wonder whether I am doing the right thing.
Gave up on someone who truly treats me well
and go for someone who dont give a damn to me.

Perhap, I just took him for granted for too long.
Always knew that he would be there for me.

Hais...
是我不會懂得怎麼去愛吧.
越不想要你難過, 可是我就是讓你難過了.
也許是我太自私了, 只想到我自己.

♥Kayy

UT is starting tomorrow.
I managed to read through the 6p.

And wees!
Holidays going to start like soon!
Finally I can get all my sleep and time for myself.
But holiday is still going to be busy!
Event planning and more event planning.
Mobsta wars is not yet done and Halloween is coming soon right after it.

Filming and more filming toooooo.
Still writing my 'taking so long to complete' script.


Today is last day with E36P and Sem1 is OVER!
I will miss my dream team badly! hais.

I am happy happy today too.
I knew some happy news
and also saw someone that I have been hoping to see today.


Thanks Sheena and Unknown(I know who are you) anyways. :)

♥Kayy

Had been a tiring week again.
When could I actually have time alone and do some thinking?

♥Kayy

Another weekend... a long one...
I suppose to go filming today.
BUT, I just got too lazy to wake up and go so early...
Sorry Wan! :P

I created a new family! :D
The Meow Superheroes. Hahahas.
Consist of Me, Sheena, Terrence, Gabe, Ridzuan, Haiqal and Christopher.
Hahahahas.
It is totally out of my randomness.
As I kept Meow-ing this few days.
And the Superheroes came from the original group of Heroes.

I am so looking forward to the outing this monday.
I really hope all could make it! :D

♥Kayy

Thinking of something to blog...
I am quite upset now.

Thinking that it is already Week 14.
1 more week, the last week for sem1 already.
How I wish the time could stop for awhile?

I think I would really miss E36P especially those I always hang out with like Daniel, NiamNiam and Ee Ling.
They brought back my love for singing.
Cause Daniel,Niam and I kept singing to disturb Ee Ling.
Playing with them is so fun that I even dreamt of playing with them.

And,
I am starting to miss my dad again. :(
Whenever I feels negative about life, I would think of him.
Hoping that he would help me somehow.

:(

♥Kayy

Sometimes, I wonder...
What's wrong with having a dream?
Even a dream is a inrealistic one.

I always dream of going to Taiwan and study about media,
Able to work there is my dream too.
I am not into filming those long draggy drama,
But, I want to do variety shows.
Variety shows that make people laugh.

But, my dream is so difficult to be true.
Or even, it will never be true.


So, what for having a dream?

My feelings have been down recently...
very down...

I had been thinking how much I changed since I join RP.
Or it is I changed or I am just pretending to be someone I am not.

Where is the nonchalant and quiet Kelly?
I could no longer be calm like I used to be.

This Kelly is not me. (is it?)
I am not cheerful nor talkative.
I am not happy like how I appear to.
I already dont know how to express my true feelings.
I am just not me.
Or rather, I just want to fit in to everyone.

I want to find the old me back.

♥Kayy