Something happened which add into my bad mood today.
I just feel so fed up la.
And I really hate people to misunderstand me and assume what i think and do.
As well as people who loves to talk behind people backs.

It is like DO YOU ACTUALLY KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO ASSUME?

I really hate conflict and misunderstanding.
I felt really helpless.

Now,
I really feel that people can be so artificial.
Argh. MORE REASONS TO NOT BELIEVE IN PEOPLE. =.=

♥Kayy

Another day in RP passed...
Had been moodless before break.
Apparantly, I am not even paying attention to any discussion or whatever.

One week had passed already.
I tried my best being more sociable which is unlike the anti social me.
I tried my best to talk more to people unlike last time when I dont even talk.
But, I still dont feel the sense of belonging in the class.
Or rather, anyone who I can actually talk to freely without restriction.

I am slowly going to back be myself and closing myself up.
:( :(

I hate this! I hate this!!

And I miss 5a2. :(

♥Kayy

I am really not in mood today.
I really dont know got into me today,
I felt damn sucky.


Yesterday,
Problem solving module.
Changed team member. so weird.
And sudddenly felt stressful cause I just couldnt work thing out well.
Plus, recently my mood have been get bad to worse.

I had been crazily stressing myself too much.
And I am getting sick with all the inregular meals and stress.

And went to SLA fiesta too
I joined Marketing and Flim factory.
Thinking whether to join replug la.
If I join replug, i might want to play saxophone again or learn drums. :D
Then I would have to choose between flim factory and replug.

I dont know laa. So difficult to choose.

I having lesson now, SCIENCE. wth.
I going to die already.

♥Kayy

I had not been expressing my true feelings today.
Act as if I am damn high and happy,
but actually I am very upset today.

as I was on the bus to school today while listening to my MP3.
I was thinking about him.
And the him is not BB.

I dont know wth I am thinking already.
and why I will still be thinking about him.
Do I still care about him and in my heart, he is always there.
If it is like that, the 4th years is coming soon.

Or,
I just felt that I waited for so long but, there is no outcome.
I hate this feeling of effort not being returned.

The whole day, I was having a feeling that I would cry anytime anywhere.
I am just holding back my tears this whole time.
AHHH!!!!


Like wtf.
What for I so upset for a guy like him?
I wont even get to see him ever again unless I very suay meet him again.
I just hope I wont meet him ever ever again laa.
HAIS.

♥Kayy

Star Award is boring this year laa.
BUT PORNSAK ROCKS LA~

Last year, he got best newcomer award.
AND this year he got Top 10 popular artist! :D
He rocks!! XD
And I hope next year, he will be nominated for Best host la.
Can get nominated very happy already. ^^

Dai Yang Tian got Best newcomer!
and he was super cute today!!
But also sad Andie didnt get best new comer.

Tomorrow have school again.
Weekend ends so fast, I didnt even realise it.

Now watching post party,
Pornsak hosting~
he is super funny laa.

♥Kayy

Finally weekend is coming already!
I am EXHAUSTED for chiong-ing the whole week.
I never felt so hardworking before siah.
Slowly adapting to the new ways to study actually I find the system is good leh.
Cause instead of listening to lectures like other poly,
I can learn better finding resources myself laa.
But sometimes some modules are useless laa. hahahahas.
And it is very very tiring everyday and I get hungry easily now.
But, I have no time to eat!!!

Yesterday,
I also met with Yu Lin.
We talked alot about school, band and teachers.
So nice to talk to yulin again...
I miss my secondary school life especially when Sec4.
Everyday school was fun and motivating.
Ahhs~ :(

During this weekend,
I am going to stay home and recharge.
I feel like sleeping now but the time now is like 9pm?
I shall sleep early today. ^^

♥Kayy

While I am thinking about how to write my Rj,
I shall blog.

Today Science is stupid laa.
The topic is interesting but the faci turned me off.
All know the subject is hate the most is Science.
And these time is about Bio and I dont learn Bio laa.
So, what i can do is only the slides.

3 days of Poly only and I am exhausted.
Everyday have to wake up early and got to leave home early.
The people in class is still nice la,
and MSN had been the main communication ways in class.
So many msn coming in in class. hahas.

I am really really tired now.
I am going to finish up my RJ and go to sleep already.

♥Kayy

Went out at 6.30am today.
Reach class 10 minutes earlier, better early than late. ^^
Had math lesson today. It was very stressful and boring.
I HATE MATH ever since Jane Cheng taught me. I used to love math so much. 0.0
But lucky my groupmates are really good at math!
Especially Hong Yan, he seem like he have installed calculator in his brain you know?
He is super smart. And I am very impressed. MIC can be great too! XD

We play the math game too. Very sian.

After school,
I met Sheena at Houg. Mall for dinner at Long John Sliver.
Talked for awhile about school.
then went to cotton on and bought a cardigan at only 5 dollars lor.
What a bargain!!! XD

then went home and did my RJ.
Stupid siah. I really hate to write such stuff. hahahas.
Write for damn long only crap a few sentences.

♥Kayy

YAK! I hate cockroaches!
CURSE CURSE CURSE!!
Curse all the cockroaches man!

♥Kayy

HAHAHAS!
just wanna say
KINO IS THE BEST SL!!!

Kino, happy?

♥Kayy

Just went to see Ncore blog.
I want this!



STAYREALXSUPERBORED lanyard.
SUPER NICE!
Especially it is in my favorite red/white polka dots!!
and the new tees are very nice too!

I am going to buy my lanyard next week after school! XD
Imagine travelling from Woodland to Orchard. o.o
I dont care. For BB and for my lanyard. (:

and went to see Outerspace website too.
New caps!!! 0.0
You know what would happened when OS have new caps! :P
I will be saving up like crazy again now.
And I wanna buy the new tee featuring Taiwan or the Japan one.
the Singapore ones is really not nice. Hahas.

♥Kayy

Back from RP for the last day of orientation.
It was fun today.

We have to report to our classroom in the morning first.
At first, everyone were tensed and quiet.
Until we were like split up to different teams.
My team was like so nice to be with lah.
We also won a notebook and a wristband for the matching games which is like super budget.
then we also were like waiting for each other to pack then we can go off together which I think is super nice.
It was better than I thought it would be. (:

After that,
We went back to home base.
So glad to see so many of my group member came which is better than the 8 of us ytd.
It more fun to be in our own group than to merge with other groups. (:

Learnt the dance for the cheer. It is pretty cool laa. Especially the STA part.
And we went to do the domino thing.
We were like standing under the sun and squeezing together.
So, was like damn warm laa.
Then we were like chatting around.
Then I realised I actually met my groupmate LeeHao before from NDP 2005.
He was from another band and he was the cute little small guy who play baritone. Hahahas.
Yulin was like telling me how cute he was last time. Hahas.
I think is very cool to like meet again after so many years.

We left after Jam and Hop started. Cause it was like super bored and we were really tired.
So we went back to get our bag and I met Chermaine too.
We all walked back to interchange together.
And Ian was like so funny again and I found two good singers too!


And I felt so bad today. I have been quite vulgar today. And I hate it.
Gonna watch my mouth already. Cause it so not me. =.=
I having back ache, shoulder pain and headache. I feel so old already.
Hahahahas.
I am so tired now. I think I am going to sleep till late evening tomorrow.


我可不可以不放手?

♥Kayy

Orientation day 2 ended.
My group only 8 person came. So, we merged with another group.
Didnt do much though but it is quite fun today.
Talked to some of the groupmate that I didnt talked to yesterday.
They are NICENICENICE!! XD
Yesterday, Shafikah mistaken me as China girl.
Today, a guy call Aldrich from my group thought that I am not Chinese. =.=
And both thought I am not Singaporean.
I really dont look like Singaporean?

& So sad didnt get to go to the same class as them.
I checked my class roster already.
All unknown people.
Lucky Ridzuan class is just beside mine, at least there is someone who can walk to class with me. ^^
My class is E36P! :D
SO sian. I want to be in W3 block leh. hahahahas.

Tomorrow will be the last day for orientation.
Have to be there by 8.30am.
Argh!!! SO early.
I have to meet Ridzuan and Chermaine at 7.15AM. >.<

I am so tired already. 0.0

越不想想, 我越會去想.
可是越想越難過.

♥Kayy

First day of Orientation was boring.

Met Chermaine early in the morning at Houg. Interchange.
And took a long bus trip to RP.

When reach RP,
we were split out to our school.
Got to know a girl while queuing up. But I forget her name. Shafikah I think?
I am very bad at remembering names.
Our group is good at games but we very slack. hahas.
Kept resting at times.

While walking to the games,
I saw someone familar but he should not be there one what.
BK! BK!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY SCHOOL? lol.
Anyways, BK is my primary school crush.
& I havent seen him since Sec 3 but that guy look exactly like him.
And I thought he was in JC already.
Ok. he making me excited for school. hahahahas!! XD

I also collected my Elink card already. Yeah-ness.
Concession here I come. I cannot stand my adult bus fare already. hahahas.
When I reach home, straight away I lie on my bed and sleep cause I am too tired walking around school.
Now I going to sleep soon again. I AM VERY VERY TIRED.
Tmr have to wake up early again. hais.

不要敷衍我, 我會更傷.

edit+
I comfirm is him already!! XD
But our class so far apart.

♥Kayy

Met Chermaine and Cherilyn at Bowen today to collect my testimonial and cert.
Surprizingly, the testimonial is so well-written until I laughed at it. :P
Luckily nothing bad about it. (:

After that we went to Fareast.
Went to Ncore.
Bought my OS cap already.
I dont know. Since I already bought it so, i cannot regret already laa. hahas.

Today the atmosphere weird weird one. I dont know.
Maybe it is because there is another guy that I dont know there.
So because of that, my mood went falling.

After that, walked for awhile then Cherilyn went to meet her boyfriend so, Chermaine and I went home. I going to sleep early today.
I need to wake up early tmr for Orientation.
I am so not excited already. Cause now I am so moody. >.<


我想念你的笑容.

♥Kayy

Yesterday,
went out with Chermaine to town.
Bought a waterbottle at taka. (:
then went to Fareast to buy sneakers.
but cant find a pair of nice sneakers. so sian.
While walking around Fareast, saw so many ex bowenian. =.=

after that went to Plaza Singapura,
bought concealer cause i am getting more insecure each day seeing my concealer getting lesser each day. hahas.
and also bought a pouch for my laptop adapter and sweets. :D

then went to hougang mall's Twister to cut hair.
last minute called them to make appointment.
And I would like to say the guy who wash my hair really isnt funny.
He kept cracking not funny jokes. So I just reply him with heh heh.
but, overall the haircut is not bad la. :D

I going Fareast today again I think?
I saw the OS cap today. MAN! I WANNA BUY IT!!! XD
And I will SOON! :)

♥Kayy

I am bored at home, realising I haven blog for a few days. hahas.
So here am I.
3 more slacking days for me.
well... im going school soon already.
the feeling is mixed with happy and sian.
I have to wake up at 6AM every morning. but, usually 6AM is the time I sleep?
I am going to have a hard time adapting again.

9 April.
Actually suppose to meet Hafizah and Sheena at Bowen to collect my Olevel cert and testimonial.
I think my testimonial remarks will be bad la. hahas.
I hasnt been a good girl in secondary school. :P
But Hafizah suddenly couldnt go, so I never meet Sheena too.
Cause Sheena could not accompany me go shopping after that as she had tuition.
So I called Chermaine up and hopefully she is free.

So I met Chermaine and her friends to go bugis.
Funny thing. I actually clicked well with her friend. hahas. Didnt know that I am so sociable. :P
Walked around for very long.
In the end I bought one pair of shoes, one tee and two magazine featuring MAOMAO!! XD
Nowaday walk around also can see MAOMAO! SO happy!
MAOMAO, Please get famous in Singapore. :P

Later at night, went to Plaza Sing's Pizza hut for dinner.
Had pasta, actually dont wanna eat chicken but there is no seafood pasta for set meal.

After that went to Hougang Mall's challenger to buy Chermaine's mouse and screen protector.
Then Chermaine suddenly say she wanna buy a MP3 for me. I was shocked. 0.0
In the end, She bought the same one as well. So she bought two.
Thanks Chermaine! (:

ANYWAYS ANYWAYS~
The 3rd generation OS cap is selling at Ncore already.
But I am very broke now.
I have to quick save 59 dollars to buy the cap if not will out of stock.

♥Kayy

8 more days to start of RP life.
hahahas.
Im excited. VERY.

but i know I will feel sian when studying at RP.
My holiday ending soon already.
Quite sad but quite happy too.
I slacked for SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long already.

So many to do this few days.

♥Kayy

Watched 爱。到底 already.
I thought the theatre going to be full. But somehow only very few people. hahas


爱。到底 the movie for 4 short clips about Love.
Maomao's is the last one.
So I was kinda bored during the first 3.
Only when the 4th clip started, everyone started laughing.
Although Maomao came out for awhile only, but he got more airtime than his other members.
Maomao is so cute in the movie!!
and he have so many lines to say compare to his brother!! XD

the other member except Aben only came out for awhile. So sad. >.<
Li Quan is extremely cute as well. *add points* He improve in acting at least! Or rather, he just being himself laa. that silly silly guy! XD

And Prince's part is super lame. 0.0
He just came out for that while. giving out flyers.
I can even remember his lines.
translate: *give flyer* thank you. *give flyer* thankyou. yeah. Finish job!
But he was really really good looking as usual.
The two brothers is madness laa~
Two of them should form a group instead. hahahahas!!

Overall, 爱。到底 still quite nice la.
But...well... I think Prince fan will be upset for such short airtime Prince had.
They are like promoting Sexy diamond. Most of them wearing sexy diamond.
And I saw a calefare walked by wearing OS cap. hahahas.

♥Kayy

Just came back home. (:
Went to Court to get the digital cam which my sister just bought.
It is PINK in colour!! hahahas.

and started taking lots of photos after getting the cam!!

also went to xinwang hk cafe for dinner.
My sister so nice treat me. hahas.
I am damn poor laa~ I wanna buy so many stuff.
I wanna buy red checkered bagpack, sneakers, os caps, tees, contact lens and many more.
hahahas!!
My sister going Taiwan.
I going to ask her to buy so so so many things!!
Cosmetic, shoes, clothes etc. hahahas!!

My mind is all about shopping now.

Anyways, tomorrow...
I am going to watch 爱。到底 with YuinHwei.
SO EXCITED!!! Cause Maomao acted in the movie.
And also Prince, Aben, Shawn(xiao ma), Gevin(Weiyu), Louis(Xiaolu) and also Li Quan.
lalalalas~

♥Kayy