My mind started thinking wild again.

Someone reminded me, he wont come back to look at me again.
If he ever would look at me, he will 4 years ago.
It is not that I wanted to continue waiting... I just cant helped myself.
1 more month, 4 years already.
Does he even know I am still waiting?
Since we last met, did he even think of me once or remembered me?
I really doubt so.

I dont know why am I still here waiting when the one I am waiting for doesnt even know?
I think that in his world, I dont even exist before. Not even once.

I am tearing now,
And it is so not because of my swollen eyes.
It's from right from my heart.

And because of him, I once slipped off someone who really treats me well.
I would have been happier.
But everything is too late.

And I am so not going to let this happen to me again.
4th year would be the last year.

♥Kayy