enchanted melodies

2010-12-22T13:49:00.003+08:00

im going to revive this blog...
actually thought of creating a brand new one,but this blog has history!
so maybe i could just change the skin and url.

2010-02-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

changed link: idontwantyou.tumblr.com

2010-01-18T19:22:00.002+08:00

JUNG JINWOON IS COMING BACKKKK!
Omg omg! I cant wait. Old news though but his teaser made my heartbeat~
I almost cried when I see this teaser.
I know i know... i am over reacting.
BUT I REALLY MISS 2AM!
Esp JUNG JINWOON.

He's my most love in kpop luh. ^^

2010-01-04T12:51:00.004+08:00

In school now.
First day of school is dreadful.
Cause it started with entrepreneurship...
I finished my slides already so I am here blogging.

I am so so sleepy yyyyyyy.
Just went to view Ncore blog.
So many things I want~

This week would be a busy one.
Meetings,
RP open house from Thurs to Sat,
Gatherings.

Recently I watched WAHSBBT, I saw hei ren wore this tee.

It remind me of BEAST!

beast is loveeeeeeeeee esp Yoseob-ie(that blonde guy)! (:
I want that tee!

So many things I want from Ncore...
someone bring me to ncore to shop please.

2010-01-01T06:50:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!

Just got home awhile ago,
and I am really really really tired.
I think I would fall asleep when I just close my eyes.

Yesterday,
I met up with Sheena @ Houg Mall
then go to Bugis with her to buy her school shoe.
And met Terrence, Gabe and WaiKiat later for STEAMBOAT~~~~~

Steamboat was AWESOMEEEEEEEEE!~

After that, we went to Marina to see the firework,
did not bother to take any pictures.
I shall just go steal Sheena pictures when she uploaded it. :P

Then we went back to Kovan Mac and lepak there.
Played UNO that I brought till the manager said we cant. -.-
@@^@&@&(^@*&@&_(#

We stayed till 5plus and ate breakfast there
and HSH. ^^

My Best New Year Gift:
FAMILY OUTING SEASON 2!
I cant imagine my life without Family Outing,
everyweek MUST watch no matter who the guest is. Hahas.

Being loved. ^^
It's a secret. Shh!!

I said I dont want new year resolution this year, cause I cant think of any. hahas.
But I thought of some.

1)STOP being confused.
2)Dont skip school just because I am lazy.
3)Save money and work for Taiwan trip.
4)Stress Management.
5)KPOP & MODI IS LOVE. (Can this be part of my resolution?)

Hahas. Just some lah. I cant think of anything esle cause I am too SLEEPYYYYYYY~
OKAY! I GOT TO SLEEP!
Nighttttttttt/Morningggggggg!

2009-12-31T03:29:00.004+08:00

This video made me cry...
A performance of Hankyung singing Bei Pan.

I wonder how is Hankyung now.
Recently so many Suju performances, but all without him.
Felt so empty, so different.
Hankyung suppose to be at the front at the SORRY SORRY part. :(

T-T

2009-12-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

today is special, no jinwoon.
But Kibum and Alexander! :)
Cause yesterday was kibum birthday! :)
Happy belated birthday!

YEAR 2009 is going to be over!
1 more day to 2010.
I going to summarize 2009 today cause, i will probably be busy tmr.

Year 2009 was quite a good year for me,
and is a fast year.
Earlier this year,
I got my Olevels results which I did badly but still able to pass to go Poly.
I got into Republic Polytechnic and know AWESOME people who change me alot.

I got into E36P for my first sem!
E36P is <3 They are the most AWESOME people I knew from RP.
I think remember how I got to know them clearly.
Niamniam and Eeling was from my first team in RP.
It was math that day. And I hate math.
And niamniam was my 1st friend in RP, because of this tools call MSN. ^^
I remember we were gossiping about our classmate. :P
For Eeling, I thought she was amazing lah. hahahas!
She is very hardworking and I dont like hardworking people,
but for some reason, I still think she is amazing!!
She is very nice and caring! <3
Daniel leh! He is the Mr. softhearted. :P
If I never forget wrongly, I talked to him because of Sexy Diamond.
It was on his msn nick luh.
And I told him when I just knew him,
He can be good friend with Jason. AND IT BECAME TRUE! :D
And why I say he is soft-hearted leh.
Because he is too niceeeee.
He always jokes around, but I know he dont mean it. ^^
Daniel is a good guy even he looks like bad boy.

I am so glad that I get know them ♥
And I miss those times I get to go lunch with them every single day,
team up with them so, i can slack. :X

Also, in RP, I joined 2 IG.
Club:G and Flim Factory.
The two IG that are totally cannot be put together.
I dont know how I managed too.
I did have moments that I wanna give up on both,
but I realized probably there is a reason why I stayed at both.
I hope both IG would forget the hate, and move on as cingu.
I know I alone wont make a difference, but I dont mind being the middle person.
At least, I can be the partition between both IG and minimise the conflict.

Cause I know both Club:G and FF members are nice people.
Both are like family to me ♥

In Club:G,
to be frank, I dont think I can design well,
the reason why I am doing the design work is
because at the start,I was better in Photoshop than others.
But, now everyone learn Photoshop in their modules already.
So I am just like the others.
There are times I broke down in Club:G because of various reasons like stress.
And I am thankful for people like Edwin, Roxaz,Chris, Ani etc for offering to help.
Even though, i dont really ask them for help at last but I am really touched by their actions, they make me motivated.

In Flim Factory,
I call Huz as my hero, so what do you think?
I am really thankful for him to help me out in my school work and treat me really well. (At least he wont make fun of me like how he make fun of Aina and Ida.)
I dont know how would it be like if he step down.

Enough of RP.
In Year 2009,
I think I got closer to some of my Bowen friends like Sheena, Terrence, Ridzuan, Gabe.

Honestly,
I did not really think that we would go out often together after we graduate from Bowen cause I thought everyone would be busy in doing their own stuff, made new friends and so on.

And Ridzuan and Gabe are like POP OUT from Nowhere. :P
For Terrence and Sheena, they are really my bestie in my sec school.

But Ridzuan is like, even though we are classmate in sec5, but we only got closer this year because we got in RP together and his first sem class is like opposite of mine and we are in the same ig. The funny part is, he joined FF because I wanna join so he joined for fun and he is going to be VP soon!

AND lastly 2009 is a dreadful and confused love year.
I finally got to know that the perfect guy I thought he was for 4 years isnt actually the perfect guy I thought.
RAWR. But it also made me realised there is no use waiting.
So he shifted out of my heart.

But somehow I couldnt find someone who are able to replace him in my heart.
I couldnt find someone who can make me have the same feelings as I have for him.
The feeling that I can only see him, no one but him.

But, nevermind. I dont really care about relationship now.
I just wanna study hard and enjoy my single life. ^^
and I can just go love jinwoon.
Cause at least he wont break my heart.

Jinwoon ♥
I still cant resist to put one gif of him. :P

I am looking forward to 2010!
cause i would have a busy start for 2010. ^^
And my birthday is coming soon.

HAPPY ADVANCE NEW YEAR YO! :)

2009-12-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

Chomp Chomp Jinwoon!♥

Merry Christmas again. ^^
I ate many nice food today.
yum yum!

I am hungry again nowwwww.

Watch many xmas special show today.
I going to glue to the tv tomorrow to watch more. ^^

2009-12-25T02:33:00.002+08:00

Bunny Jinwoon♥

Merry Christmas! :D

Actually I dont really have the mood for Christmas.
But I still have to go my auntie house to celebrate.
Nevermind.
At least I get to eat delicious food cooked by my auntie. ^^

Got to sleep soon.
Cause I have to wake up early.

2009-12-23T04:29:00.003+08:00

Jinwoon♥

Yawn.
Going to sleep soon.

Aww...
2010 seems to be a busy one to start with.
But I am so looking forward to 2010.
I hope I can see Jin-nie in 2010~ :)

2009-12-22T01:04:00.002+08:00

Need someone to cheer me up...
And Jinwoon shall do the job!

<3
jin-nie is totally my type of guy! :)

2009-12-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

Ahhh~ holiday is so niceeeeeeeee.
I like it when I get to sleep and wake up anytime i want. :)

But my sister told me sometime that made me go allkpop.
Hankyung wants to teminate contract with SME?
Oh no~ :'(

Even though, I dont like SME because of the DBSK thing.
But, I dont want Hankyung to leave Super Junior.
Hankyung is my 1st love in Kpop.
He is the one who led me to Kpop...

But thinking for Hankyung.
If DBSK's contract is slave contract to JaeChunSu trio.
What is Hankyung's contract going to be?
How much is Hankyung actually paid?
One word.
WORSE

cause he is a foreigner.
He have to pay the taxes too.
Hais.

But,
Hankyung, Please dont leave SuperJunior!

AND
there are news that Jaybeom might be coming back.(unsure)
I am glad that Jay might be coming back.
He is my favourite after Junsu in 2PM afterall.
Everyone is waiting for the leader.

But I dont feel really happy actually.
Cause of Hankyung.

2009-12-16T22:21:00.006+08:00

Hahahas. I did not blog as I said I would.
And now I am lazy to blog about the interaction with f.t island.
All I can say is they are super nice esp f.t triple! :D
the other two is super nice lah. Just that I am biased.

Anyways, the reason I didnt blog that day was...
I am too tired to do anything that day,
I dragged myself out of bed because I was suppose to be in school that day to celebrate Niamniam birthday. If not, I would just sleep off my morning, skip school and go school in the afternoon for UT. hahahas.
But it is worth it, cause it is for Niamniam. :)
And he is touched. ^^ (Right?Niamniam? )

And thanks to Hongyan for allowing us to celebrate at his hostel.
I miss going to his hostel!
The best place to lepak during breaks, with the best views! :D

Pictures!
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO NIAMNIAM! (COUNTDOWN:1HOUR!)

BIRTHDAY BOY! :D

Group pictures!

Grp picture with Ben locked out! :D
Yes. We bullied him!
We lock him out at the balcony and pull down all the curtain. hahas.

Me and Birthday boyboy! :D
He will never ever take a proper picture with me! :(

camwhor-ed with my other rp bestie!

EeLing<3

& The one that will not bully me! Daniel! :D

Yah. I spend most of my 2nd break for niam birthday celebration.
I am hardly so free during creative concept day!
Lucky that day work was easy! :P
and I got to present FT Island on my PPT slide!

And took pictures with the creative girls!

ANYWAY!
Jaejin birthday is the same as Niamniam too!
17DEC babies! :D:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIAMNIAM & JAEJIN!!

2009-12-14T00:54:00.003+08:00

I AM BACKKKKKKKK~ :D

Minhwan-ie 's flight just flew off~

and I am so tired! yawnnnnn.

But today is a good day! so many interaction. ^^

Okay, I think i better sleep.

I have to wake up for school tmr luh. 0.0

And the time I wake up is also the time Minhwan reach Korea!

Okay. Shall blog in school.

2009-12-08T08:31:00.004+08:00

COUNTDOWN: 2 MORE DAYS!

Minhwan ah~ Noona is waiting for you! :D I am so excited about thursday! Hwan-ie! Hwan-ie! :)I made a bunny doll with my sister for him! I hope he will like it. I am being such a fan girl again. P/S: I realized I always love the drummer.

2009-11-28T02:25:00.002+08:00

Here come my weekly post! HAHAS!
Nothing much really happened this week though.
A safe week. phew.

Have been listening many songs this weeks.
I updated my music folder with new Chinese songs.
Recommendation: Evan Yo new album Loneliness is super good! :D
I think this is the best album Evan had. :)

And also, I watched MAMA (A music award)like finally.
I am very proud of 2PM!! :)
And I miss Jay! :(
They are all so cute when they cried when they won the best artiste of the year! :D
And they are the best boy group too.

And funny thing is Lollipop actually appeared at MAMA.
well, literally.
Cause they were not at Korea, but China instead. -.-
And the voice(xiao jie) and face(wang zi) of lollipop never attend.
So I thought the performances was kinda bad. :(
Like a lost opportunity luh.
They could be famous in Korea like Show Luo.
Somehow lah. hahahas.

But, lollipop is still love.
And Choc7 is super love!
Today(27nov) is a Massive Modi Madness day, everything is about him today. :)
And also DADA's birthday! I miss him.
And I realized Ice's birthday is coming soon. I miss him so so so much!!!
I still remember we were chionging post for him that time.
A year had passed. So fast. :(

2009-11-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

搖搖- 放棄你

我想我並不聰明我沒有你的機靈
在愛情變質之前我沒反應沒察覺你的表情
你知道我不聰明所以才選擇放棄
放棄去猜你每一個反應去猜你是否變心
放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你放棄自己
放棄了愛的權利放棄你等於放棄我自己
你知道我不聰明所以我選擇放棄
放棄去猜該如何留住你放棄了所有回憶
放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你放棄自己放棄了愛的權利
放棄你等於放棄我自己
放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你放棄自己放棄了愛的權利放棄你等於放棄我自己
放棄你等於放棄我自己

2009-11-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

Boo!

2009-11-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

Rawrrrrrrr.
I wanna bite off people's head.

So many things came across my mind ytd.
Firstly,
I did not see or meet the clique ytd for break which made me kinda upset.
I realised I hasnt seen them for quite a few days since I skipped class on thursday.
Wed and Thurs module is killer. Usually no time for lunch.
So have to go pack back and eat.

And I saw HW on my way back.
And the usual feeling came back again. I dont know why but...
I miss him somehow.
but whatever...
Like the quote of 'the release' by timothy alvin.
when you let go of something/someone you love, dont expect to find them back.

And movie screening after school la.
thorns of love by FilmIG and The release by timothy alvin.
I think the screening sucks. I am not saying the movie sucks lah.
Just that the people who go for the movie screening sucks. 0.0
Okay. Maybe I cannot take criticism, or i felt unfair. :(

Cause thorns of love is our very first film we did.
And I know it is not good.
But the reality is just so harsh.
And the first thing I heard after the movie finish is... BORING.
Hais. I know this comment is nothing compared to the real critic.
But, thinking that we did this filming during the fasting month.
And my fellow member did not even drink or eat when filming under the bright bright sun and even though I am not fasting, but I did not eat too.
At the same time,I was so tired that I have to miss sending steve home. :(

And the worse words came from the advisor. -.-
He made us sound as if we worth nothing.
AND IT IS JUST SO NOT MOTIVATING!
All I can say is his method dont work on us.

And Aina have to delay her production,
so the next one will be mine or Eda.
But, I am so not motivated.
And my storyline is not strong enough.

Mr devil popped out suddenly.
He say' just give up and quit'

Miss Angel popped out too,
She say,'dont quit, you learn from mistake'

I always believe in mr devil.
But Miss angel convinced me somehow.
I encounter so many obstacles, and I never quit.
Why am I quitting now?

RAWR RAWR RAWR.
I am just ranting.
Dont care about me.

2009-11-10T19:33:00.003+08:00

My blog is dead. I know.
I am lazyyyyyyyy~ hahahas.

I have been back to Kpop again!
Cause my two loves is back!
U-Kiss came back last week, while 2PM is coming back this week. ^^
and Jay might be coming back!!

U-KISS new concept rocks!! :D
Especially when my baby dongho look more mature. He dont look fifteen!!
Their song Manmanhanni is niceeeeeeee. addictive.

2PM!! Or rather 1.59PM cause Jaybeom is no back yet.
But I hope the good new is true!! JYP wont cheat our feeling right?
Their songs is super nice! esp heartbeat!
the voice over are said by taecyeon nowwwwww.
I actually felt sad listening to their songs cause I miss Jay!!
JAYBEOM!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE COME BACKKKKKKK~

A song for you.

2009-11-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

給我你的愛
詞：顏璽軒曲:TANK 編曲：呂紹淳演唱：TANK

等待　一點一滴　你對我感到安心感覺
　朋友關係　有了新的默契
便利商店裡　誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱

我的　最大幸褔　是發現了我愛你
靈魂　有了意義　用每一天珍惜
便利商店裡　誰也買不到
我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
雨和天空也有　相愛的可能
望著妳的微笑　情不自禁
給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
就算地球毀滅　來不及流淚
只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱

2009-11-03T22:20:00.003+08:00

Today was a wtf day.
Really... especially when I broke down again during Club:G again.

I am not angry but just sad.
This few days, I have been thinking about this matter a lots.
Talked to some of my friends about it.
Mostly tell me, choose one.

But, all I can say both Club:G and Film factory is equally important to me.
That why whatever I heard or see, I just keep it to myself
and walk out when i cant stand it anymore.
The moment I step out, my tears just cant stop flowing.
I really felt helpless at the moment.
Felt so out of place.

All I can say
The hate wont end if all this keep continue.
How long do the hate have to last?
I dont know.
I seriously hope things will get better.
Even it is almost impossible.

What have FF done to deserve all this?
Hais. I dont know.

No offence,
but since ff and Club:G is using the same room.
Why dont they have some basic respect for each other?
I dont know what FF had done in the past, but i know the FF now is different.
I doubt they would offence Club:G in any way and different IG have different rules dont they?
So why hold the past grudge and put it on the present FF?

HAIS.

2009-11-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

Wooos!
I am happy happy happy.

The day started stress and boring.
I actually woke up late despite setting two time for alarm.

Faci Larry wont be here for two weeks.
And came a boring faci.
Today's problem started confusing and then my two team mate went home,
And only left me, xiaohui and yihan.
Glad that we manage to finish everything, and the problem turns out quite manageable.
SMILE.

After school,
went home striaght despite the heavy rain.
Mrt-ed with daniel.

Daniel ask me a question which I had been questioning myself this few days too.
How long could we maintain this cycle of going break for the 2nd break?

Seriously, I hope as long as possible.
But will that really come true?
Even when I am from the different school from three of them?
DMA, CC is taking my time off 2nd break cause there are so many things to do.
2 hours for 2nd break is not even enough for me to do everything.
But I really really hope we could always be the same.

Maybe when I tell truth, everything will change.

My purpose of going home early is to try using my mobile broadband!
AND finally I can use internet at home without the big obstacle, KELVIN LAM.

2009-11-01T23:45:00.003+08:00

Back here to rant.
Hahas.

Had been quite relax for the past week.
At least, there isnt many things that I have to stress about.

And halloween is over,
Another event down.
What next? Not much actually.
Since I am not from the flame awards team.
So, I will be quite relaxed. Hahahahas.
Finally break.

But UT is coming.
And I dont know which date for which module.
I am kinda lazy to find out too.

Recently, many things got into me.
Kept bumping into people that I am sorry for.
I guess they hate me for being so selfish. :(
Everytime I see them, I felt like running away.
Because I am really sorry about what I did.
Hais. If only then, I had the courage to tell them instead of just running away from them.
Perhap, we are still friends.

Actually, I still kinda miss those times I hang out with one of them
But, hais... I lost such a good friend to have.
I was too much, and I took him for granted.
I could only blame myself if he really hates me.

2009-10-26T12:12:00.002+08:00

Back from the 2nd break.
Ah... I am bored.
But, I am in good mood. :)

我覺得我好幸福.
雖然一切過的像火車經過的一樣快.
可是我還是好快樂.
就算是很小很小的一個事情.
我就很滿足.

2009-10-22T10:33:00.001+08:00

Life is such a bitch.

2009-10-21T08:29:00.002+08:00

After the bad bad new day,

Okay. Not really bad.
But also kinda bad.
What am I talking about?

The result is I got in.
I am glad that Zaidi got in too.
But sad because some of the fun people did not manage to get through.
I will miss them luh.

Mixed feeling. :/

2009-10-20T17:17:00.001+08:00

Argh.
Wtf is the feeling I am having now.

Waiting outside ClubG room for the interview.
I seriously hate interview.
Rawrrrrr~

2009-10-20T08:17:00.002+08:00

I realised I hasnt blog for a week.
Had been rather relax for the past week.

Today would be a bad bad day.
Actually, I am not upset that I might get eliminated off the Main comm.
But, I am more upset because today would be the last day, all of us is going meeting together.
I dont really care whether I get in a not.
What I think is, If I dont get in, I will just continue my life being less stress and busy. I would have more time for my friends. If I get in, I will just continue to work my ass off for club:G.

Rawr. Today is a bad bad day.
I think I will cry today again.
Ahhhhhhh~

I wonder am I only the only thinking this way,
or the others are thinking the same way as me as well.

I just felt today is like some elimination round.
How sad.

2009-10-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

Had a bad bad day today.
Since the starting of the day, I felt miserable.
Upset because of certain stuff.
But Daniel and EeLing cheered me up a little.

ClubG meeting is bad bad bad. hahahas.
But also good good good.
What am I saying? Hahahas.

I voiced out how stressful I am recently,
what actually happened between my team.
How grateful that Zaidi is always helping me.
Seriously, when Zaidi said he isnt coming for the meeting, I almost cried.
Because I know something real big is coming.
I told Zaidi in the morning, if he fall, I will fall too.

I hasnt cried for some times,
and I cried today.
I just felt so sad that I felt so lonely today and also I hasnt been a good incharge.
Even though they all told me, I have done well or I am a good in charge.
But I know myself.
I am not a good leader,
because, I cant communicate with my member well.
Or maybe I have been too lenient on them.
I dont know.

I was wondering why I am making myself so stress?
Why must be carry all the burden myself?

Rawr.
But now at least I know Club G people treats me well.
They do care about me. :)
Anyways, Thanks to those who ask me to cheer up and comfort me.
Sorry to make you all worried because I cried.
I am just not someone who can overcome stress well nor talk to someone about it.
I would just put everything in my heart until I cant take it anymore.
I am just not used to talk to people about my feelings. :(

2009-10-12T12:16:00.002+08:00

Now in the 2nd break.
Just came back after lunch-ing with clique.
Came back early, therefore I am here blogging,

My feeling now is EMO.
Perhaps, I am thinking too much again.

But I feel uneasy.
Does he know how I felt? Or he is just pretending not to know it?
Maybe he dont need me in his life anymore.
I dont know.

But I know, if he is going to ignore me one day,
I would fall badly.

2009-10-11T20:04:00.002+08:00

Finally my brother allow me to use the computer.
BOO at him!
Cause I asked him since 3PM!!!

Yesterday,
went school for Mobsta wars dryrun.
I was late. (Sorry. :( )
But I had fun during the dryrun and know some new people from subcomm too! :)
After dryrun, lepak awhile with Steve, Roxaz, Khair and Ani because we are really bored.
And I am really lazy to move.
It have been awhile since I just lepak around with them.

After that, I mrt-ed and bus-ed to Sheena house.
Gabe and Terence came awhile after.
We ordered delivery from Pizza hut.
There goes all my money again. :(
Then we went down to the playground and chat.
And I kinda recall some of my past.
And realised why I am so afraid to give the chance.
In the end, it is not that I am finding the perfect one,
it is just that I am too afraid to get hurt again.

Around 11.30PM, we went home...
and chat with them on phone till I fell asleep.
I seriously fell asleep when they are talking,
I was really tired cause I woke up early yesterday too.

Ahhhhhhhh. My brother only say I am play until 8.30PM
so bad right?
Hais!!

2009-10-10T08:59:00.002+08:00

Finally weekend!
I had a tough and busy week.
And also a week full of emotion.
Excitement, Sadness, Happy, Anger and many more.

So many event and birthday planning.
Since school started, there is so many things to do.
I dont even get to walk with dreamteam to causeway point.

Omg. The time now is 9.08AM!
I need to run already.
I am late for dryrun!
I will blog later then. :)
I got so many things to blog.

Anyways! Today is Modi birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MODI!!
I LOVE YOU! <3

2009-10-08T18:07:00.002+08:00

Currently in Club:G room.

Things arent doing well this few days.

First, seeing people who are I shouldnt be seeing.
Now I find myself being selfish.
When someone treat me well or like me, i would hope they dont.
But when they move on, I will start thinking of them.
This is how selfish I am. Hahahas.
Cause they have been given me attention that I hope I would have,
but when they dont give me the attention, I feel sad.
So weird.

Second,
my temper is bad this few days.
Just felt that so many people are making me angry.
Hahahahas.
Maybe the problem lies on me.
I dont know.

Whatever,
I should talk something esle.
I am glad that I had made some friends in the class.
There is also someone who loves bbt and kpop like me!!!!!!!!
Shiok-ness.

And I still get to lunch with my lovely dream team! hahahas.
I still feel the most comfortable with them.
I can be myself whenever I am with them.
Cause they always understand what I mean.
Whenever I say something wrong, they would know I dont mean it.
I am so glad that I know them. :)

And last thing.

I dont know.
whether I am too used to this kind of relationship with him,
Or I have actually fallen for him?

Even in the past, he or even me myself dont notice it.
I had been actually quite over protective of him
and also jealous whenever he is with other girls.

Now I dont get to see him as often as last time,
I would actually miss him alot.
And also my feeling of the day seems to be dependent on his mood of the day as well.

But even I do like him, I wont tell him.
Because I dont want things like this become a gap between us.
And we wont be as close as now if I really tell him.

What should I do?

2009-10-05T19:57:00.002+08:00

First day of school is BORING.
And NiamNiamm pangseh me! BOOOOOOOOO!

Early in the morning,
I entered the class with unknown people except for Kalis.
Left my bags there and went out and chat with ClubG people.
And so dumb of me.
Today then I realised Fizzy is Year1. I always thought he is Year2.
WAHAHAHAS!

And I realised actually my class have a few people from my orientation group.
But I just dont really rmb them. (I have bad memory.)

Class was boring.
I think everyone are just not used to each other,
therefore the class is very quiet.

Webcam-ed Daniel and Eeling today too.
I miss e36P. :(
I miss laughing during classes.
I miss laughing during presentation.
I miss disturbing daniel during break.
I miss everything laa.

After school,
went makan at KFC with Daniel, EeLing, Royston and Kenneth.
This is when Niamniammmm pangseh me!! (He always ps me lo!)

actually suppose to go help out at school after makan.
But I suddenly felt sick, so I just left for home.

I am feeling stressful about the new class actually.
I am so nervous during presentation.
It just felt like the 1st day of school.
Totally lost the feeling of how to present.
And I am afraid for stranger. Hahahas.
The worse thing is my classmate's presentation skills are very good.
I felt inferior there. :(

2009-10-04T05:08:00.003+08:00

Last day of holiday.
I had been counting down since last week.

I am so looking forward to school because
that the only place that can keep me busy so that I wont think too much.
Hahahas.
I looking forward to webcam my dream team since we are not in the same class anymore.
But we are all at the same block!
How lucky.

2009-10-03T04:32:00.002+08:00

And another songs that I am addicted too.
And the lyrics is so sweet too...
If only Jinwoon sing this to me... *daydream*

A friend's confession by 2am

ggwae ohrae dwetsuh
nae mamee jogeumshik byunhagi shijakhanji
honjasuh gwaerohwuhhanji..
uhnjaebootunga neega ohrddaemada
nuhreul uhrlineun namjaga nuhmoona meewuhtsuh

charari naega nuhl jikineungae
naeuljido moreun saenggakee...

eejaeneun naega nuhl ahnahjoogo
saranghaejoogo shipdan saenggakee deuluhtsuh

Baby eejaeneun naegaewah
And be my lady
nuhmoona ohraedongahn jikyuhbwatsuh
mal uhbshi suhsuh
ahntakkawoon gaseumeul soomgimyuh

chingooroh, chingooroh jinaeya handaneun eeyuroh
mokgaji chaohllatduhn geu gobaekeul chamahyahaetsuh..
hajiman eejaeneun gobaekhalgae
nuhreul saranghae...

nae soneul jabgo nabakkae uhbdamyuh
nagahteun chingooreul dungae,
jeongmal keun chukbogiramyeo
byeonchi maljago mareul halttaemada,
jogeumshik jaraneun nae sarangeul nulluhtsuh

charari naega nuhl jikineungae
naeuljido moreundaneun saenggakee

jakkooman deuluhtjiman chamahtsuh
nuhreul eeruhbuhrilkkaba duryuhwoh, hajiman...

Baby (Baby) eejaeneun naegaewa (naegaewa)
And be my lady (lady)
nuhmoona ohraedongahn jikyuhbwatsuh
maruhbshi suhsuh
ahntakkawoon gaseumeul soomgimyuh (No)

chingooroh (Your friend), chingooroh jinaeya handaneun eeyuroh (I know)
mokgaji chaohrlatdun (chaohrlatdun geumahl)

geu gobaekeul (gobaekeul) chamahyahaetsuh (mahlhal su uhbsuhtsuh)
hajiman eejaeneun gobaekhalgae,
nuhreul saranghae...
I love you...

Translation.

It's been a while
since my heart has been changing,
since I've been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry

I'd rather protect you,
although I don't know if it will make it better...

This time I'll hold you and love you
is what I thought

Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I've watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.

As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I'll confess to you,
I love you...

You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it's a blessing
Whenever you say let's never change,
I had to push my feelings down

It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better

I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but...

Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I've watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)

As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)

That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn't say it)
But now I'll confess to you,
I love you...

2009-10-03T04:27:00.002+08:00

This song by 2AM is super nice.

2AM – This Song

Yeppeun mokgeorreul sajugo shipjjiman
Meotjjin chareul taewo jugo shipjjiman
Yeppeun oseul ipyeo jugo shipjjiman o nan
Joeun gose deh ryeogago shipjjiman

Jumeoni eh neoeun sonen japineun ge eomneunde
Eotteoke neol jabeul suga isseo
Nae saenghwareun neoege eo-ulliji anneunde
Geuraedo nae gyeote isseojugenni

Jul su inneunge I norae bakke eoptta
Gajin georagon I mokssori bakke eoptta
Ige neol utkke mandeul sun isseuljji moreujiman
Geuraedo bulleo bonda niga bada jugil barae bonda

Neoneun gwaenchandago mareul hajiman
Naman isseumyeon dwendago hajiman
Haengbokadago neul malhae jujiman neoneun
Deo baraneun ge eopttago hajiman

Yeppeugo joeun geotdeul jaemitkko meotjjin ildeul
Neodo bunmyeonghi hago sipjjana Baby
Nae gyeote isseo jumyeon motaneun geol aljjana
Geuraedo nae gyeote isseo jugenni

Jul su inneunge I norae bakke eoptta
Gajin georagon I mokssori bakke eoptta
Ige neol utkke mandeul sun isseuljji moreujiman
Geuraedo bulleo bonda niga bada jugil barae bonda

I norae bakke eoptta
Jeongmal gajinge I mokssori bakke eoptta
Ige neol utkke mandeul sun isseuljji moreujiman
Geuraedo bulleo bonda
Niga bada jugil barae bonda

Niga bada jugil barae bonda
Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
Even though I want to dress you in nice clothes
Even though I want to take you to nice places

Translation.

This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
How can I get you
My position doesn't suit you
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

Even if you say it's okay
Even if you say it's okay if I have you
Even if you say you're happy everyday
Even if you say you don't what anything more

Pretty, good things; fun, cool things
You obviously want to do these things too Baby
You know that if you stay by my side I can't do these things
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

I only have this song
I really have nothing but this voice
I don't know if this will make you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it
I hope you accept it

2009-10-03T02:03:00.003+08:00

I still cant log in to Msn.
BOO!

But my sister tell me to log in by Ebuddy.

Anyways,
I got posted to E35D! :)
Classmate with Kalis again.
But I am a little upset about the posting.

Because since my classmate is mostly from STA.
But none of my classmate are from Club:G.
Sad.
Instead, They are in the class next door.
What a dumb luck. :(

but I am so glad that NiamNiammmm and Daniel is just directly two floor above me.
We still can go makan like last time right? hahahas.

Well...
And I got duty on the first shift and first day.
Probably there wont be many people as well.
:(:(:(

2009-10-02T07:17:00.002+08:00

My laptop msn went crazy.
Before I sent it to IT helpdesk, the msn was fine.
this two days i did not log in through my laptop msn until at night.
And it became Not responsing whenever I clicked signed it.

So I just uninstall it and tried to reinstall it.
But, I cannnot reinstall it.
I download the setup.
And install it till 73% and it got stuck there. =.=
It always got stuck when installing microsoft choice guard.
What should I do? I dont want to go school without Msn.

Should I go back to IT helpdesk?
But I doubt they can help me luh.

2009-10-01T11:17:00.002+08:00

Time to blog again.

Wednesday.
Went out with my Bowen friends to celebrate Wan's birthday.
Went to Vivo and watch movie, 'Fame'
After that we went to Marina square to have dinner.

During the outing,
I look tired and moodless.
But I am actually deep in thoughts.
I did think about CNWL. But not how much I miss him or what.
But, I am actually thinking to move on.
Maybe what Sheena say is right,
I will just have to put him somewhere in my loving memories.

Actually,
My empty heart is somehow filled by a little.
I am touched by someone.
I understand his feelings.
And I also know it is better to be love than to love.
I did have the urge to accept him.
But a second thought, I dont think I am ready for this.
I dont want to give him empty hopes.
I dont want to bring him up high and drop him down.
Cause I know the feeling sucks.

I dont know.
Somehow, I dont want to lose this friend.
Because, I have no faith in relationship anymore.
After seeing what my friends undergo,
it seems like nothing last forever.

Thursday.

Went to Compass point with Sheena and Gabe.
Ate at Pizza hut with them.
I am craving for pizza now. I should have ordered pizza instead.
Then waited for Wan at Mac.
When Wan came, we just sat in Mac aimlessly doing nothing, not talking much either.
Then we met up with Chris and Jackson and went into Compass Height.
So we just sat at the playground and talk again. (How bored!)
After a while, we took out the cake to celebrate wan birthday again.
It suppose to be a surprise but Chris spoiled it. ( Lazy to say how he did.)

After eating the cake, we went home.
AND I went home ALONE by 87, while the others took 159. (Rawr!)
I think I am dumb,
I should had took the Mrt to hougang instead since I alighted at hougang to take 62 or 113.
Nevermind.
The long bus trips is fine as long as there are 2AM songs. ^^

I am tired during the day as well.
I dont know why, I just get really tired the moment I go out. Hahas.
As well as still thinking about what I was thinking the previous day.

I want to sleep off my last few days of holidays.
But can I?

2009-09-28T07:00:00.004+08:00

I am tired and sleepy.
But I just cant bring myself to go sleep.

Cause I know if I sleep now,
I will probably(which I think for sure) wake up around 7PM again.
And I would be too awake to sleep early at night again.

I have a meeting at school tomorrow.
So I have to wake up early tomorrow.
I just have to endure till night
so that I would sleep well tonight!
And wake up early tomorrow.
I don't want to be a zombie like the previous meeting.

Don't find me weird.
This is just a way for me to adapt the change before school starts.
Cause apparently now, my bedtime is the time when I have to wake up for school.
So I have to change back the time when I sleeps.

BUT~
I AM SO TIRED NOW!!!!

and probably when Mum wakes up,
she is going to nag at me.

+edit
Of a second thought,
I think I shall sleep...
And set my alarm to noon.
So I don't sleep too much!

Because I don't want Mum to nag at me.
I should quickly run to bed and sleep already.
Night~ (I meant Morning~)

2009-09-28T03:39:00.002+08:00

I am bored.
1 more week to be bored until school starts.

But the last week of holiday seems so packed. hahas.
There's so many things i want to buy and do.

There would be meetings for club:g.
Ridzuan's birthday falls on this week as well.
There is a open house by Huz too which I am still considering whether should I go.

I need a haircut. ( My bangs are getting longgggg. and hair need to be layered.)
I get too lazy to striaghten my hair this days,
so I just tie it up when I go out.

I want to dye my hair too.
I dont like black hair. Hahas.

I need to get a new pair of contact lens.
The current pair I am wearing are hurting my eye if I wore it for long hours.
So I need to get a new pair ASAP.

I need to buy eyeliner too.
My eyeliner is becoming shorter and shorter.
I WANT to buy gel eyeliner. lol.

And if I got spare money to spend,
I want to buy a new pair of shoes.

But somehow I am broke. -.-
So many things to buy, not enough money to spend.

Hope money fly from the sky when I wake up!! XD

2009-09-25T07:23:00.002+08:00

Lalalalas~
I am in heaven now.
Very happy!!
I passed all my module for sem1.
I got B for all module, and C for Math.
C may look very bad,
But I am very contented already.
Cause, I did not take UT2 and my daily grades are mostly C.
Pass Math = I dont need to do math anymore!!

And I cant believe I pass UT3. Hahahahas.

So looking forward till they post us to different class.
I just hope they would post me with my STA friends.
AND not YKY!!! I got a bad feeling about that!

2009-09-24T04:21:00.004+08:00

This is a Fan song done for 2PM Leadja!
Park Jaebeom!
We are still waiting for you to come back.
Please be strong and come back...
We will always be waiting till you return to us.
This lyrics of this songs really expressed my feeling for him.

Please come back so that I could love you more.
I miss your smile, the silly leader and everything about you.

2009-09-23T04:14:00.003+08:00

I changed my laptop desktop wallpaper and added a super cool clock.

See my clock?
It is Super Junior clock!!
See the difference between two pictures?
The clocks even changed members...
Hahahas.

And my wallpaper featuring Mfbbt, 2AM,2PM, Suju and U-kiss.
I counted that there are 45 different guys in my wallpaper. LOL.
Mfbbt:15
2AM+2PM=ONEDAY :4+7=11
SuperJunior:13
U-kiss:6
Total:45.

Madness.

2009-09-23T03:13:00.004+08:00

A heavy heart...

so...
As I thought he would be...
he is a sweet guy.

But not towards me... but someone esle.
I am envious of her. very.

I miss those times...

When I saw him and walked past him at corridoor...
I would look down and try not to see him.
But, I was hoping he would notice me.

I miss those times...

When I saw him walking toward to school backgate in the morning.
No matter how tired I am,
I will still walk quickly.
And I just want to walk behind him.

I miss those times...

When I make excuses to go out of Art class to spray my work,
just hope to see him playing soccer from far.

I miss those times...

When I look across to the next block during Chinese lesson,
just hope to see him sleeping in class.
And always wish to be band into the same chinese class as him.
But instead I got to be with his friends. -.-

And so many many many memories just flashed back suddenly.

I know that he belongs to someone else...
And why am I still holding on?
I don't want to.
But I just let go easily,
cause...
I waited for 4 years.

2009-09-22T09:12:00.003+08:00

What I hate the most during holiday?

Going to school.
It takes me 1hour plus to just travel to school ALONE.
And I also need 1 hour to get ready to just go to school...

But I just have to go to school.
I used to love to go for meetings.
But now...
My motivation is not there somehow.

How I hope time flies quickly till school reopen...
I am sick of being at home at the time...
But I am lazy to leave home.

I think soon I will be afraid of sunlight already.
Cause I only wakes up at the night this few days.

Got to change and go to school again!!!!

2009-09-21T05:35:00.002+08:00

I dreamt about someone yesterday.
I miss that someone too.

How I hope I could go back to Secondary2?
5th July 2005.

I should have kept that feeling to myself.
Not letting anyone know.
So that he won't know too.

I used to have thoughts that liking him and waiting for him is enough.
I dont need him to like me back.
But sometimes I just cannot cheat on myself,
and tries to give up and move on.
Somehow I just failed... badly.

Even when I knew,
he is not the guy that I always thought.
Or rather, far from what I thought of him.
But I am still stuck here...
waiting aimlessly.

I wonder...
For so long since we last met,
Does he even think of me once?

2009-09-19T06:08:00.003+08:00

Before I go to sleep,
I hope to see you two in my dreams...

2PM's Junsu

2AM's JinWoon.

♥Kayy

I realised I really likes small eyes guys. WAHAHAS!
I am totally becoming a fangirl again.

2009-09-15T02:31:00.002+08:00

I have a meeting later in the morning.
And I have to wake up at 8.30am
But, what am I still doing in front of the computer?

Watching SNSD's HELLO BABY!
I am addicted to this show. The baby is so cute!
SNSD is so pretty too! I love Yoona! :)

while downloading wild bunny and some other 2PM video so that I can watch during the day time.

I MISS JAY!!!! RAWR.
But I disagree with Hottest decision for boycotting 2PM.
I know if 2PM is still doing well without Jay,
the chance Jay would come back as 2PM will be even low, or even no chance.
But this would be so unfair to the other member.
What if, If 2PM is not doing well, Jay dont come back and they get disband?
rawr. hais.

I am loving 2PM more.
Jaybeom, Junsu, Junho, Nickkhun, Taecyeon, Chansung and Woo young : 2PM
I really hope Jay would come back.
Pink Grandpa Leadja is always 2PM's Jaebeom, 2PM's leader!

I still cant sleep! :(
Anyways, i just chat with Daniel daddy online.
I MISS HIM!!
and also the other dream member, jason and Ee Ling!
Hope we can go out together soon. ^^

Okay! I shall go back to my Hello Baby! :)

2009-09-13T01:07:00.003+08:00

I am sorry.

Holiday are miserable.
I cant use the computer(with internet) whenever I want.
Because my idiotic brother hog with it every single day.
Rawr. I am really mad at him. :/
Cant he just get out of the house and work or make friends with REAL people.
Instead of everyday playing computer games.

Rawr!Rawr!Rawr!
Because of him! I cannot even check my webmail regularly.

I am getting excited for the new sememster to come.
New class, New friends.
Also, being with the usual friend lepaking.

Holiday makes me lazy.
Make me just wanna stay home and sleep.

2009-09-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

Now my feeling is depressing.
My beloved 2pm’s leader Jae bum quits 2pm and returned back to Seattle just because some anti fan found out a childish comment he wrote on his blog on how he hate Korea long time ago.
I seriously don’t understand why does the anti need to treat him like this?
Oh yah, needless to say. The anti fan are really famous of killing the idol.
Just like Dbsk’s Yunho incident.
But does really a need to have a suicidal petition over this case?
I think is stupid.

Poor Jaebum and the rest of 2pm member.
Heard that magnae Wooyoung cried so badly till fainted.
I wonder do the anti have some conscience?

Thinking in a brighter side,
Perhaps Jaebum leaving 2pm is right.
He suffered enough.

And rumoured 2pm will be finding a new member.
I hope not.
I don’t want the feeling that Jae bum is being replaced.
Jaebum is one of my favourites in 2pm.
And heard that next year, they will be coming to Singapore again.
This time without Jaebum.
I was really hoping to see Uncle Jay again. 

But now,
I only hope 2pm is alright.
Jun su, Nick khun, Jun ho, Taek, ChanSung and Woo Young will continue to shine. (:

2009-09-08T09:44:00.002+08:00

I am in verge of giving up of FF.
The reason I joined FF is because of my interest of filming.
But, somehow I dont felt belong.

During Secondary School period, I always wanted to go to N88(Chinese Mass Comm)
Because, it is different from the normal mass com.
It is in chinese.
I admit, I am a little cheena.
But doing production in chinese is what I wanted.
And this is what I cant find in FF.

Because, most of the active member are malay.
I am not racist.
I love every of them.
They are very nice and fun people to work with.
But somehow, I just dont get what they say.

I also want to finish my 'homework'
Actually, I did wrote my script already.
But I just couldnt find the perfect cast for my film.
Hais.

2009-09-05T01:32:00.003+08:00

Had been thinking a lot recently...

I am living in my imaginary world.
Imagine that you are still my Mr. Perfect
despite knowing all about the real you.
Why must I always fall into the irreality?

Someone bring me back to reality, please?

2009-09-02T02:55:00.001+08:00

Monday
Woke up early in the morning to go back to Bowen.
I miss travelling to Bowen everyday.
Just a 10minutes trip from home.
Unlike to RP, It will take me 1hour30minutes to go from home.

The feeling is so different.
I dont feel belong anymore.
Or rather, I feel superior in Bowen. HAHA!

We talked to many teachers.
Mdm Lim, Mrs Cheng, Mr Khoo etc etc.
And the one I am most afraid of, Mr Tan. :X

After that went for lunch at Hougang Point
and watch Band Slam at J8.
Lepak awhile with Sheena, Terrence and Gabe.
AND HOME SWEET HOME! :D

Tuesday.
Woke up early again.
CLUBG MEETING!!!
Ethan said, I am stoning.
I am in bad mood today.
VERY BAD.
Ate at Subway after meeting.
AND HOME SWEET HOME AGAIN!

&
Someone noticed my MSN pm: To love or be loved.
This two phrase looked the same but have a totally different meaning.
Sometimes, both can be used together.
But, I guessed not for me.

Ethan sent me a speech by Adrian Tan about Life and how to survive it which I find it very meaningful and true. *nod head with agreement*

A part of the speech which answer my pm.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn't say 'be loved'. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one's looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone. Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation.

That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a
reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work - the only kind
of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen by
chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart. You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

2009-08-29T01:58:00.002+08:00

2 minute to 2am.
What am I doing this late?
I cant sleep.
I just kept thinking...
How and when did I get into this situation?

I really want to tell them that I already know the truth.
But I cant.
Cause I know if I tell them,
Not only I will get hurt,
they will get hurt too.

I dont want to see my friends to be upset.

2009-08-27T12:55:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,
Many things happened.
Many things were found out.
Many things made me dumbfounded.

Went West Coast for filming.
I somehow acted a small part.
And I am sunburned and became darker!

Production team without me!

But overall I had fun! XD
And tired!!

At night, actually suppose to go airport and send Stiffy off.
But I cant make it.
Cause I am really tired after the production.
Sorry Stiffy. :(

Like I say I am dumbfounded because of some stuff.

The perfect guy in my eyes isnt really that perfect.
And is exactly the type of guy I would hate.
I spend 4 years of my life just waiting for him.
Why does my heart hurt so much when I heard that he is not the one I actually thought he were?
Perhap he was right.
I just dont know him at all.
But I know my love for him was once true.

2009-08-25T00:16:00.002+08:00

I am excited about next week already.
Going back to Bowen Sec for Teacher's Day.

I hope that I would find back some memories for my script.
& really hope I would see someone. :)

And also 5A2 people! XD
Miss all my secondary school friends!

2009-08-24T23:20:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the last UT for sem 1.
I totally buang math today... seriously.

And tomorrow will be the last day E36P will be as a class.
Sad.
I miss Daniel, Jason and Ee Ling already. HAHAHAS!

This week is a BUSY BUSY week.
Tues- UT, FF meeting & E36p outing.
Wed- Filming, Ton with Lepak IG.
Thurs- Send Stiffy off, MORE FILMING!
Friday- Outing with Meow Meow! :D

Busy busy! XD

2009-08-21T21:20:00.002+08:00

Uts are driving me crazy.

This two days lepak with film family.
Discussed with my new production team for our new films.
WOOOO!
I am so looking forward to our films.
And now, for my film.
I need to find a cute male lead.
I have someone in mind, but I dont dare ask luh. WAHAHAS!
BKYL! BE MY MALE LEADDDDDDDD~ :P

2009-08-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

I wonder what got into me today...

Sheena told me he has move on,
and I saw him with a girl talking happily on bus today...

I should be glad that he had move on,
But why do I have the bitter feeling in me?

Sometimes, I wonder whether I am doing the right thing.
Gave up on someone who truly treats me well
and go for someone who dont give a damn to me.

Perhap, I just took him for granted for too long.
Always knew that he would be there for me.

Hais...
是我不會懂得怎麼去愛吧.
越不想要你難過, 可是我就是讓你難過了.
也許是我太自私了, 只想到我自己.

2009-08-18T23:13:00.002+08:00

UT is starting tomorrow.
I managed to read through the 6p.

And wees!
Holidays going to start like soon!
Finally I can get all my sleep and time for myself.
But holiday is still going to be busy!
Event planning and more event planning.
Mobsta wars is not yet done and Halloween is coming soon right after it.

Filming and more filming toooooo.
Still writing my 'taking so long to complete' script.

Today is last day with E36P and Sem1 is OVER!
I will miss my dream team badly! hais.

I am happy happy today too.
I knew some happy news
and also saw someone that I have been hoping to see today.

Thanks Sheena and Unknown(I know who are you) anyways. :)

2009-08-16T00:07:00.002+08:00

Had been a tiring week again.
When could I actually have time alone and do some thinking?

2009-08-08T08:54:00.002+08:00

Another weekend... a long one...
I suppose to go filming today.
BUT, I just got too lazy to wake up and go so early...
Sorry Wan! :P

I created a new family! :D
The Meow Superheroes. Hahahas.
Consist of Me, Sheena, Terrence, Gabe, Ridzuan, Haiqal and Christopher.
Hahahahas.
It is totally out of my randomness.
As I kept Meow-ing this few days.
And the Superheroes came from the original group of Heroes.

I am so looking forward to the outing this monday.
I really hope all could make it! :D

2009-08-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

Thinking of something to blog...
I am quite upset now.

Thinking that it is already Week 14.
1 more week, the last week for sem1 already.
How I wish the time could stop for awhile?

I think I would really miss E36P especially those I always hang out with like Daniel, NiamNiam and Ee Ling.
They brought back my love for singing.
Cause Daniel,Niam and I kept singing to disturb Ee Ling.
Playing with them is so fun that I even dreamt of playing with them.

And,
I am starting to miss my dad again. :(
Whenever I feels negative about life, I would think of him.
Hoping that he would help me somehow.

:(

2009-08-03T17:07:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder...
What's wrong with having a dream?
Even a dream is a inrealistic one.

I always dream of going to Taiwan and study about media,
Able to work there is my dream too.
I am not into filming those long draggy drama,
But, I want to do variety shows.
Variety shows that make people laugh.

But, my dream is so difficult to be true.
Or even, it will never be true.

So, what for having a dream?

My feelings have been down recently...
very down...

I had been thinking how much I changed since I join RP.
Or it is I changed or I am just pretending to be someone I am not.

Where is the nonchalant and quiet Kelly?
I could no longer be calm like I used to be.

This Kelly is not me. (is it?)
I am not cheerful nor talkative.
I am not happy like how I appear to.
I already dont know how to express my true feelings.
I am just not me.
Or rather, I just want to fit in to everyone.

I want to find the old me back.

2009-07-26T01:14:00.003+08:00

I love doing test~
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test1.aspx
& this is so true.

Here is the analysis:

1)When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
2)You give 75% to your relationship and expect to receive 25% in return.
3)If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
4)You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
5)You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you.
6)When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

Yes, I dont fall in love easily.
But when I fall in love with someone I will love him for a long time.

And here am I being emo again.
When everyone is having fun at ignite, I am actually sad in my heart.
No one knew. (Okay, maybe asraf knew. )
Sometimes, I do wanna just cry out in front of him and tell him my feelings.
I feel bad, REAL bad.
Someone ask me, Do you really like him that much.
I answered, YES! THAT MUCH!

Those who know me well would know,
when I say I like someone,
I really meant I like him a lot.
Maybe much more than I would expected myself.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Whatever! Whatever! Whatever!

2009-07-22T10:29:00.000+08:00

I am addicted in doing quiz. LOL. & they are all so true. LOL

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test80.aspx?q=b

Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

2009-07-22T09:14:00.002+08:00

Did a personality test which I think is so true. :D

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2009-07-22T08:18:00.003+08:00

Back to blogging. How long did I delay this time?

Many many thing happened...
Sick for a week and still counting.
Lost my new LG phone.
Finally got back my laptop.
Bought my Choc7 EP.
Ice talked to me on msn.
Mfbbt going to stop.
Found Modi look-alike in School. (HAHAHAS!)
Met up with 5a2 people on Sat.
IG meeting is back.
What esle?

I hope I could get well real soon.
It is miserable to keep coughing.
I had been coughing for more than a week already.

I finally got back my beloved laptop.
And the first thing I did is WEBCAM!!! :D
Hahahas. I had been waiting for 3 weeks to webcam.
Webcam-ed with Jeannie on Monday and Christopher CHUA on Tuesday.
Who will I webcam today? hahahas.

Yesterday,
Club:G meeting is back!
I got so many things to do and complete by Friday.
But the poster we are going to do is so so so nice. hahahas.

2009-07-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

Today was super fun.
Actually was in a very bad mood at the start of the day.
But somehow E36P brighten my day. :)

During lunch break,
makan with the usual at food haven.
After that, went to HongYan's hostel for fun.
His hostel view super nice lor, can see Malaysia.
I wanna go for holiday laaa. I am dying for it.

My team combined with another team for today presentation.
We did a skit which turned out very funny lor.

NiamNiam part is so funny laaa. Hahaahaaaas~
Waffle Uncle/Auntie~~ :D

2009-07-07T23:30:00.003+08:00

I am studying for tomorrow's Cognitive UT.
Today class is damn =.=
DRAMA!!
[Dont wanna explain la]

Now I am just going to bother about myself.
They dont wanna help themselves, let them be.
I dont give a damn already la.

After school.
like finally met up with Lepak IG pple at TRCC.
Made my day better. :D

I love chocolate waffles! *wink*
& I am craving for food haven's chocolate waffles.

Would you take my hand?

2009-07-06T23:32:00.003+08:00

Felt upset again. :(
I kept feeling this way recently.
Especially, the grace period I gave myself is over.

Now I am feeling the same way all over again.
What am I exactly waiting for?

2009-07-06T14:58:00.003+08:00

Bah~ using rp's laptop again.
And today's laptop kept lagging.

Communication today.
I like communication, at least it is my favourite module among the 5 module.
And also the module that I fared the best.

Yesterday,
went to Sentosa with Film Factory IG.
It was enjoyable until it rains. =.=
I will upload the pictures later when I get home.

Hasnt seen my Lepak ig for quite sometime.
Saw some of them when having lunch just now.
I miss them already la. hahahas.

So tired.
I wanna go home and sleep early.
I saw Lollipop 2nd album and Choc7 EP at CD drama ytd.
I WANNA BUY!!!!! :(
But I am broke already. :/
I must save money liao. Just in case, any of them come to sg.

I also need to save for SS501 or FT Island when they come end of the year.
I WANT TO IDOL CHASE~ hahahahas.

2009-07-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

Here am I blogging again. hahahahas.
In school now using the sch lousy laptop.
I miss my laptop laa.

Follow up for Tuesday post.
I went out with lepak ig again.
Played pool and true or dare with them.
Had lots of fun that day la.
AND SUPER SUPER HAPPY THAT DAY. :D
(Lazy to explain)

Yesterday.
Back to school again.
Got really fed up with cognitive faci so...
My classmate and I decided to RUN~
hahahahaas.
Played pool at Lucky Plaza. (I know how to play liao ok?)
then dinner at KFC @ Cine.

After dinner, being so bloated.
Daniel, Royston & I decided to go Far east to walk for awhile
(OK. I kept saying I wanna go Ncore laa.)
I got so many thing I wanna buy. :/
Sooo poor already.

2009-06-30T09:31:00.002+08:00

Hahas. Sorry for MIA-ing again.
Currently staying over at my aunt house.
And there's a big monster in the house preventing me to use the comp.

E-learning is burning my brain cells now.
I am so confused of what to be done. :/

I got so much to blog.
But I forget what I wanna blog.

2009-06-26T00:19:00.003+08:00

If you dont read news.
I am going to tell you that RP year 1 are ask to stay away from school
AND do E-learning at home.

And E-learning sucks.
It is so messy, so confusing, so stress.
AND THE GRADE IS NOT COUNTED.
wth. I dont know why I work so hard today. wahahas.

I am so unhappy today.
I dont know why.
Maybe because of him, yeah.
Actually is because of him.

I am getting more and more sensitive with this thing already.
And I hate it. :(
I just hope we could be like usual. :(

ARGHHHHH~
Anyway,
STIFFY STEVE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :D

2009-06-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

Wth wth wth.
My laptop spoilt!
& no warranty coverage for the lcd screen.
What the...
I can go kill myself. hahahas.

Monday
I was attentive and hardworking that day because the lousy msn of the school laptop does not allow me to chat on group...
OMG! I WONDER HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE W/O CHATTING WITH THE GROUP SIAH!!!!
It is so damn bored la. =.=

Went to marina barrage after sch with some of my classmates.
Had lots of fun there.
I lazy to upload the pictures up laa. hahahahas.

Tuesday
Overslept for school today,
so I decided to skip school. Hahahas.

Went to school for Club:G meeting.
After that went TRCC for dinner.
I was quite moodless today,
I just couldnt stop thinking.

2009-06-20T02:04:00.008+08:00

Finally I can blog.
BLOGGER was down just now.

Did not go school today again.
I am exhausted already.

This week school was a fun one. :)

Tuesday
Had Math that day.
It was quite easy! :D

Club:G meeting.
Actually was cancelled but, We still meet up at last.
Discussed about the events and the presentation for the next day.
Then slacked at TRCC for awhile.

Wednesday
Had Science. HOHOHO!
First time, I am the only one in the group who understand the question.
(My science really CMI.)
Webcam in class with Shamini and Daniel.

after school;

Club:G!

Club:G tea party!
Had lots of fun.
Get to know some of the sub-com people but I forget their names.
(I am really bad at names.)

Slacked at TRCC again after that.

Camwhore at TRCC.
And I sat beside a ghost leh. So cool. :X

Thursday
NO FILMFACTORY MEETING.
I was kinda relieved.

I was extremely high after the 2nd break.
Kept disturbing Daniel when he was sleeping.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS!!
Daniel! Dont ever sleep in class. You know what would I do.
Was pissed off too.
Because of someone in my team. Arghh.
Shamini rocks lah.

Went to Club:G room as the others had meeting.
My shoes spoilt.
Thanks to Steve for buying super glue for me.
I can at least wear the shoes for the whole day.
That lousy shoes lasted me for two months. -.-

Went to TRCC again after that.
Ate lunch there.
& Webcam-ed with Asraf. (WOO! I LOVE WEBCAM!)
Discussed a little publicity stuff with Irfan and Afiq til my lappy batt went flat.

when we were going home,
I found out something which got me thinking through out the bus trip home.
I was like...
"SO it was obvious"
"SO he knew it"
"SO why....."

Ah. Whatever.
I dont plan to tell him either.
I like the way things are going now.

Anyways, I bling-ed my left hand finger nails.
& I am super hungry now.

2009-06-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

Hmms. I am so tired now.
Decided to blog before I sleep.

First day back to school.
I am on holiday mood laa.
Communications today.
Did a poster. Hahahas.
Like finally, I can use my photoshop for school work.

Met Steve for lunch today.
Then also met the rest of them.
is like so long never go for lunch in canteen. :)

Tmr there is Club G meeting.
WEES!! I'm loving it. :)

You made my heart goes beating again. :)

2009-06-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

Today was FUN!! :D

Met Sheena at Hougang Point for lunch today.
Had KFC again.

Then went to cut hair with her.
I dont know what to say about my hair.
But I hope it would grow long faster. hahahas.

After cutting my hair,
I went to meet my STA friends for the fireworks display at Yishun.

THEM!!
Looking forward to the fireworks!! :D

With Chris. :)
And my new haircut is like so weird luh.
It kinda makes me fat. :X

The fireworks display was kinda nice.
However, I expected more. hahahahas!

But, I enjoyed myself today. :)

2009-06-13T00:11:00.005+08:00

I am back from camp!!!!
All I can say is the camp was SUPER FUN
Seriously, damn fun laa.

Got to know some super cool people.
Among them, I found Primary school schoolmates and Secondary school's seniors la.

I really hope that all of us could like get into main comm laa.
REALLY!! It would be weird without anyone of them. :(

Too tired to talk laa.
Lets post PICTURES!!! :D

CHRIS!! :D
He bully me only laa.
But, it was super fun to be in the same group as him la. :)
And he was my primary school schoolmate leh. WAHAHAHAHAS!
But, I dont know him that time.

Colin.:)
He told me scary stuff of RP.
And I am seriously creeped out.

NUM guy!! FIZZY~~
He is SUPER DUPER VERY FUNNY! hahahahas.

Jeannie!! :D
Thank to her for always accompanying me la.
She is super nice.

Hasanah!!
Did not really expect to see her in the camp or RP.
Oh well, we are in the same cca(IG) again.

Serene. :D
Did not really talk much with her though,
but, it was great to know her la.

Alex!
He is really a giant la~
And he was super nice too. :)

Zack Zaidi!
Another fellow Bowenian laa.
It was great to like know him more through the camp.
And also, we bus-ed home together too.
Talked about bowen stuff.

2009-06-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

I am so excited for Club G camp.
But I hate packing for camps. HAHAHAS!
Troublesome.

Going for camp for 2 days.
Have to sleep early today.
So boring.
Tmr I have to go school alone.
Hais!!
CHERMAINE & WAN, I MISS YOU ALL LAA~ HAHAHAHAHAS!!
I hate going school alone in the morning. :X
Lucky I meeting my camp friends at causeway point before going to school.

Okay, I have to go sleep already,
I AM SO SO TIRED. 0.0

2009-06-10T15:15:00.001+08:00

Choc 7's "Tai qing chun" MV. :D
SUPER CUTE LAAA~

2009-06-10T13:14:00.003+08:00

Yawnn~
Another day of boredness.
Was playing facebook yesterday and went searching for bbt guys.
And I found some including LIAO XIAOJIE!! XD
Aww... I miss him laa.
How I wish I can see him now. hais.

I hope Choc7 would come soon.
But not so soon laa.
Cause holiday going over liao.
If they come during school days, I cannot go too.
Cause most of my 2 days of self break for each module is used already.

And Omg.
My sister send me a youtube link.
My baby Dongho is a host of a show.
Super cute la.

HAHAHAS!
My fanatic post again.
I going out later for shopping. :)
Tmr will be Club G camp already. WEES~
So so so excited.

2009-06-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

Went out today with mum and sister.
Bought a new sneakers. :) (Like finally!)
And also ate KFC for dinner.

I am so bored today.
Nothing to do online. hais hais.
Okay, I have to go pack for my camp already.
So excited. :X

2009-06-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

I had fun today!!! :D

Went for Japanese buffet today with Hanwei, Sheena, Chermaine and Lynette.
The food there was quite not bad. :D

After that, went Velocity and Square2 for a walk.
AND I SAW MICHELLE CHIA.
and her husband, Shawn Yue.
AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE MICHELLE CHIA. <3<3
She is really really pretty. wees~

Then we mrt-ed to Hanwei's house.
Mahjong-ed until 8plus and went off.

Met sis and mum at hougang plaza for some light snack.
Then cabbed home.

I want NUM's Taiwan tank top!! XD
Going to buy it with sheena and chermaine. :X
There goes my pay for this weekend.

2009-06-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

I am really pissed off already.

I have been obvious that I am avoiding someone.
But, he just wont stop.
I really dont know what to do.
I dont want to say mean stuff to him. I really dont want.
But, me and him is NO WAY.

Why must he do things that make me really want to shout at him?
Why cant he get it and just leave me alone?

Everything seems so awkward now.
Do he really want me to disappear from his sight then he will give up?

I have more than enough troubles.
Dont add more to me okay?

2009-06-06T21:07:00.020+08:00

back home from work @ hougang point with Hanwei.
Hougang point a place with many memories.

Memories with Haoying.
Argh! I really miss him leh.
Still remember then when I bid him goodbye with the candles and stuff.
And how I struggled not to cry when I sent him off back to Taiwan.

Anyways, I had fun working with Hanwei. :)
Eventually, We are slacking and chatting for the whole time. Hahas.
Then had dinner with him at KFC.
after went to Hougang Mall for a walk.
HANWEI CANNOT DIFFER SATELLITE AND STAR!!! HAHAHAHAS!
Anyways, Thank Hanwei for the meal and sending me home. :D
Hanwei is super nice. :)

Hahahas.
Off to bath first.

2009-06-05T21:11:00.002+08:00

My mind started thinking wild again.

Someone reminded me, he wont come back to look at me again.
If he ever would look at me, he will 4 years ago.
It is not that I wanted to continue waiting... I just cant helped myself.
1 more month, 4 years already.
Does he even know I am still waiting?
Since we last met, did he even think of me once or remembered me?
I really doubt so.

I dont know why am I still here waiting when the one I am waiting for doesnt even know?
I think that in his world, I dont even exist before. Not even once.

I am tearing now,
And it is so not because of my swollen eyes.
It's from right from my heart.

And because of him, I once slipped off someone who really treats me well.
I would have been happier.
But everything is too late.

And I am so not going to let this happen to me again.
4th year would be the last year.

2009-06-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Film Factory outing.
Watch The Days at Sinema @ Old School.
The movie was not bad just that, the atmosphere was even nicer.
Seriously, can sleep there. HAHAHAS!

And my eyes is swollen now. :(
I am going to wear spec for the whole week until school holiday is over.

Many things happened as well...
But dont wanna talk about it anymore.
Thanks to Hanwei again for cheering me up again.
Hanwei rocks lah and dont emo because I emo ok? :D

2009-06-05T08:35:00.002+08:00

I had a beautiful dream.
I dreamt that you came back for me.

But, dreams are always opposite to reality.

2009-06-04T23:35:00.004+08:00

Just got back home from movie outing with Sheena, Hanwei and his friends.
Watched Night at the museum 2.

Feeling so disappointed now and irritated.

I thought I was on the right track,
but, I realised it is all just about myself.
Am I just not good enough?
Then I started thinking back to last time, the same feeling again.
Confidence level dropped again.

And I am damn irritated when my handphone kept ringing.
Is it because I treat guys friend too well and they get the wrong idea?
I dont like it when a guy friend treat me too well.

However thanks to Hanwei, Sheena and NgiamNgiam
for cheering me up. I am more happier now.

Now, I dont care already laaa.
Just let everything follow flow... :)

2009-06-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

超克7 - 我太笨

我太笨不懂爱情的分寸
想念着两个人的快乐依赖着你给的体温
我太笨看著你渐渐变冷
只能默默的给你信任传达我包容的眼神
付出这么多换来些什么我不愿过问
只愿相信你傻笑的很天真
在爱情里太笨是不是我天真
爱情的那些课程我还没修完学分
在爱情里太笨是不是我太天真
爱情的那些课程 Hoo Baby
爱情的那些学分
都没能满分
我太笨看着你渐渐变冷
只能默默的给你信任传达我包容的眼神
付出这么多换来些什么我不愿过问
只愿相信你傻笑的很天真
在爱情里太笨是不是我天真
爱情的那些课程我还没修完学分
在爱情里太笨是不是我太天真
爱情的那些课程 Hoo Baby
爱情的那些学分
都没能满分
在爱情里太笨是不是我天真
爱情的那些课程我还没修完学分
在爱情里太笨是不是我太天真
爱情的那些课程 Hoo Baby
爱情的那些学分
都没能满分

2009-06-03T20:23:00.005+08:00

Hohoho! My baby's EP is out already. (Since like 29MAY.)

I must must must have a copy of this!

Baby looks super duper cute in this EP! :D
Anyways, My baby, Maodi is the 2nd from left in the cover of the EP(2nd Pic).
His group new name is called Choc7.

Well... I said my blog will not have him.
BUT I just cant resist! hahas.
Cause, I love him so so so much. hahahas.

When I start listening to their song,
I actually felt like crying. hahahas.
After waiting so so long, Maomao like finally did it.
Even though, it is just an EP with 3 songs.
But, HE DID IT!!!!
And the song is very very nice. :)

I am going to listen to his songs already.

2009-05-31T22:01:00.003+08:00

Back from Film factory's filming.
SO SO SO TIRED!

And Thanks Max for driving me home thus, I dont need to suffer the long bus trip home.

Early in the morning.
Met at Club G club room!
Then make up Ace to ah peh.
HAHAHAHAS! WE actually put creamer on his hair lor.
Then when he sweat, the creamer became milk.
Like so funny! hahahahhas.
Ah peh is so sexy today when he took the boom! hahahahas!

Didnt know that RP carpark is so much fun until Max drove us. Hahahas.
Like rollercoaster lor. hahahs
SUPER FUN! :D:D:D
Me and Aina was like kept running to his car when he is going to drive.

Okay okay.
I am a little lazy to blog.
I guess I shall wait for the pictures to be send to me then I blog again.

2009-05-31T02:21:00.002+08:00

Hahahahas!
I am not going to sleep yet.
At least not when my hair is still wet.

When I am too free,
I will start thinking wild again.
When I start thinking wild,
I will be upset again.

But actually,
this time I am not as upset as last time.
I no longer thought of whoever.
Perhap, he is really gone.

Instead,
I felt different.
I felt that I am no longer a girl who no one ever noticed.
I felt like I am not common anymore.
Confidence and self-esteem seems to overcome me.
I actually felt proud to be myself but not someone esle.

Wow.
I did not become emo this time.

Okay.
My hair is dry.
Good night again.

2009-05-31T01:57:00.004+08:00

Wees!
Went to Sheena's house to borrow White Tee shirt for my filming tomorrow.(or rather, today.)
Slack at her place for the whole day.
Took silly pictures with her. Hahahas.

also webcam-ed with Hanwei.
OMG!!! Hanwei's dog is super cute laaa.
I wanna kidnap her.( his dog is a girl.)
Hanwei walked away and his dog followed him lor. Super cute!! XD XD!

Argh.
So tired. I have to wake up early. :(
IT IS SUNDAY! AND I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY.
Nvm. today would be fun!

Sleeping time. Good Night. :)

Elmo rocks anyways.
And I am happy happy happy!

2009-05-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

Finally finally finally!!
HOLIDAY!! Even though it is only a short 2 weeks.
But it is more than enough i think.
Time to recharged.
But...
My 2 weeks of holiday looks so packed now. haha.
Film factory's filming, Club G camps as well as class bbq.
But I am so so so looking for Club G camp!!
Club G people are super nice.

But, also not forgetting my fellow Film factory friends.
Every week, I looked forward to Thursday.
Cause, It is Film factory meeting day!! :D
The meeting that's full of laughter. hahahahahs.

However, I am feeling bad now.
Coughing for like a week already.
I think my lung will come out soon. Hahahas.
So tired already.

I have to go charge my batt already.